It’s strange sometime, knowing that someone you love, some one you care for is going to die. I mean it’s not like a death sentence right? Cause nothing is ever 100 percent, but if you really think about it, I kinda is. And you just want to be normal when you are around them, cause they are not gone yet. But in the back of your mind that thought just keeps clawing, and gnawing at you, and you just feel like you are going to break down right there and cry, because you don’t know if this is the last time… if it will be goodbye. And you just cant stop being so angry! So mad! And just question why?! Why take them? What have they ever done?! They never deserved this! Out of the billions of people in the world, why!? Why them? And you just want to keep thinking, “well they’re still here, it’s not going to happen” but you’re just lying to yourself, and setting yourself up even more pain. But you just can’t stop thinking that because you don’t want them to go, you’re not ready yet. But it is going to happen any way. And you just think everything will be ok, and that you can go run in the house and they will be there.  And that you will still get those hugs, and see that warm smile. But the truth is you can’t and you won’t! And it’s just not fair! It’s not fair to see them go, but it’s not fair to act like they are dead already because they’re not! And you just want to detach yourself because you don’t want to feel the hurt to feel that pain, but you love them to much to do that! But who said life was fair right? I guess you truly don’t realize how much you love something, until it is gone.